My husband teases me because I google people. A lot. Anyone I'm curious about... friends, coworkers, fellow alumni, whoever, they're all game. I find real life to be so much more interesting than fiction, and the people I know tend to provide much entertainment in that aspect.
Ex-boyfriends? Yeah, I google them too (if I can remember their names, lol). I have no interest in contacting any of them, but I can't help being curious about what they're doing with their lives now. I cared about each of them for a time, and obviously part of me still does.
Probably the most disappointing result was finding one ex's profile on a sex personals ad. NO, I wasn't trolling the sex ads for my own use, but I know the screenname he uses for all of his online dealings, therefore his ad popped up in a google search. What a letdown; I'm actually embarassed for him. He's an extremely good-looking guy who surely wouldn't have that much of a problem finding women.
So the other day, I heard a song on the radio that reminded me of Chris. We met the weekend after September 11, 2001 and hit it off immediately. What I remember most about Chris is that he was just FUN. The two of us together were like a comedy duo, no joke! We were even offered jobs by a total stranger while we were shopping at Wal-Mart... this other customer had seen us several times around the store and we constantly had him cracking up. Chris had a bit of a rebel past including a minor criminal record, and looked the part with myriad tattoos and body piercings (including some in places that made me a bit squeamish). However, when we met he was back in school at UT, kicking butt on their forensics team, and was going to church. There's so much more I could say about him, but rather go overboard with details, I'll just say he's a great guy and leave it at that.
We dated for a few months before I performed my classic Amber move and dumped him, which was the most painful breakup I ever had but something just didn't feel right and it wasn't fair to him to keep it going. The next girl he dated after me turned out to be his future wife.
So, yesterday after hearing that song, I googled him. He is actually a PASTOR now! I practically hit the floor. Found out that he went to seminary in Kentucky starting in 2005, and is currently serving somewhere in our area. I never would've predicted that he would go that path, but after I got over the initial shock I realized that he would be so effective in the ministry.
I feel like I finally have real closure with him. After learning about what he's doing now, I finally feel like everything's okay. He's doing amazing work with his life. His heart's pure and right, and surely in far better condition than my own. I wish I could tell him how proud I am of what he has become.
But I won't. Sometimes things are simply better left unsaid.
